No Superman

All men on this earth are like boxers, we must stand alone.
Having your worth judged by the world is like entering a ring, it puts your talents on display.
And there’s nowhere to hide.
I never intended to live for myself… Or to try and obtain the approval of others… Or to seek out love… Or to build the lies that can sometimes come from love… We live in that fear.
I will tell you this about the man I see in the mirror on a daily basis.
He is, against all reason, his best asset and his worst enemy.
And he is also a liar.
But is that because he is trying to make himself better than who he is?
Or is it because the one force more powerful than a son wanting the admiration of his father…
Is the son wanting the admiration of the world?
Sometimes we need the help of our imagination to achieve that status.
For it is no easy task being the strongest, wisest and most beloved man in all the land.
And what is sadder is that moment when others discover that we are not the illusory superman we’ve created…
But rather, as Herman Melville once wrote, “men drained of valor”.
The lies that come from love can devastate as much as those that come from malice.
I pray his legacy becomes the inspiration for truth.
A beauty that lets his family admire him unconditionally even when he deserve no accolades at all.

Pretty Wings

Time will bring the real end of our trial
One day they’ll be no remnants
No trace, no residual feelings within ya
One day you won’t remember me

Your face will be the reason I smile
But I will not see what I cannot have forever
I’ll always love ya, I hope you feel the same

Oh you played me dirty, your game was so bad
You toyed with my affliction
Had to fill out my prescription
Found the remedy, I had to set you free

Hear Me Now

Well I swear to God I’ve been down this road before
The guilt’s no good and it only shames me more
And the truths that I try to hide
Are so much clearer when it’s not my life
And when I don’t face the blame

Now my body’s on the floor
And I am calling
Well I’m calling out to You
Can You hear me now?

ANBERLIN – FEEL GOOD DRAG

ANBERLIN – FEEL GOOD DRAG

I’m tired of who I am
You were my greatest mistake
I fell in love with your sin
Your littlest sin…

Failure is our disease
You broke my heart, my joy
You brought my greatest failure
Discourse won’t save myself

Was this over before?
Before it ever began?
Your kiss, your calls, your clutch
Like the Devil’s got your hand

This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips, your lies, your lust
Like the Devil’s in your hands

Knowing Love:

There once was a little boy who never knew love until a girl broke his HEART

1 Corinthians 3

1 Corinthians 3
Bible Study Notes

Verse 1:
“mere infants in Christ” – Paul is speaking or writing to listeners who were converted believers that were like children in their understanding, knowledge, and experience of the Lord.  They had very little ability to judge spiritual matters and were not skilled in the idea of righteousness. 

Verse 3:
“are you not worldly?” – It is disappointing to think about how many so called “Christians” live and act like the rest of the world.  This plague doesn’t just effect those in the congregation because many professors and preachers portray themselves as Christians, but are also driven by vanity and are quick to despise and speak harshly about others.

Verse 7:
Full verse – No glory belongs to us as ministers or missionaries because we are nothing in ourselves.  The Lord gives us all of our abilities, assists us in exercising our gifts daily and spiritually, and makes us useful for His own glory.  He deserves all the glory!

Verse 8:
“each will be rewarded according to his own labor” – Some Christians will take their spiritual work more seriously and will pursue the Lord more whole heartedly than others.  The Lord will reward people differently according to how well they carry out their spiritual tasks. 

Verse 17:
Full Verse – If a Christian spreads false principles that portray the church of God unholy, they are bringing destruction upon themselves.  Christians should strive to be pure and clean in both heart and conversation.  If someone is unconcerned with their personal holiness or the peace and purity of the church, they are absolutely deceiving themselves if they consider their body a temple of the Holy Ghost. 

Verse 18:
Full Verse – The thoughts of the wisest man on earth are still vane, weak, and erroneous. This fact should teach us to be humble and make us willing to be taught by God so we’re not led away by our own human wisdom and skill from the revelation of Christ’s simple truths.

“Always”

“Always” – Kyle Nesbit (ref. Building 429)

I was standing in the pour raining
One dark November night
Fighting off the bitter cold
When the box caught my eye
The edges were torn and the box was filled
And then to my surprise
On top laid a photograph
And my heart just stopped inside
It would have been five years today
I miss her smile, I miss her face
What is my heart and soul supposed to say

But I believe always always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains
He will be with us always

I’m living in a broken world dreaming of my future home
My heart is barely keeping pace
When her memories find me all alone
I remember the way I felt
When she said the final goodbye
Fighting just to keep the tears
And the anger locked inside
I’m barely holding on to faith
But I know deliverance is on its way

‘Cuz I believe always always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all hope is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains
He will be with you always

Friend I don’t know where you are
And I don’t know where you’ve been
Maybe you’re fighting for your life
Or just about to throw the towel in
But if you’re crying out for mercy
If there’s no hope left at all
If you’ve given everything you’ve got
And you’re still about to fall
Well hold on, hold on, hold on

Cuz I believe always always
Our Savior never fails
Even when all faith is gone
God knows our pain and His promise remains
Always, Always
He will be with you always
He will be with you always
He will be with you

Free Fallin – John Mayer

Free Fallin – John Mayer

And I’m a bad boy ’cause I don’t even miss her

I’m a bad boy for breakin her heart…

I wanna glide down over mulholland

I wanna write her name in the sky

Gonna free fall out into nothin’

Uhhhh..

Gonna leave this world for a while

And I’m free, free fallin’, fallin’

Yeah I’m free, free fallin’, fallin’

Knowing God’s Ways:

Someone accused me the other day of “being proud and arrogant for assuming that I could know God’s ways!” 

I’m writing this to explain that the Lord commands us to seek Him – to have a desire to know Him and His ways.  He tells us that if we seek Him, we will find Him. The author of Proverbs wrote, “I love those who love me; and those who diligently seek me will find me” (Prov. 8:17). God loves each one of us, and I believe those who love Him deeply discover the depth of His love in ways that cannot be humanly expressed.

When we know someone intimately, we begin to know what that person likes, how they respond, and what they love about us. God’s acts are one thing, but His ways go much deeper. We can see His actions, but when we begin to understand why He does certain things, then we will develop true insight into God.

Daily Prayer:

Lord help me expand my faith, let me trust You in a big way, and take my life and use it for Your purposes. 

I want to walk in Your ways.  I want to know Your plans for my life.  Teach me to understand what is Your best and keep me from walking outside of Your ways because I know that path will be expensive.  I understand Your ways are better than my ways.  I know Your plans and purposes are far greater than anything I could do on my own for myself.  Thank you for giving me many of my hearts desires, but help me enjoy them by directing me on how to walk in Your ways.  It’s in Your Holy and precious name I pray, Amen.